I'm back! ;-)

hey bloggers! i'm back! with a vengeance...

wow, it's so good to be online again! hurrah! i'm in the 21st century again! for two months i was a block of ice in my igloo... a big, fat (in terms of cholesterol, lipids, adipose tissues, and the like) block of ice that did nothing but eat, play, and sleep 24/7... but of course, i also cleansed myself with twigs, leaves, and water from a stream nearby my place... whew! talking about my own ice age for the past two months...

but now i am gradually thawing to the modern times... i'm feeling again the grandeur that is the internet! good thing Yahoo! Mail, Blogger, and Friendster did not ban me from using their services...

yehey! my writing ability is online again! it's been a lifetime since i wrote something with my carpals... hey, that's a scientific term! my course-mates would be so proud of me... hehehe... hey, am i using "..."? and where is my ";-)"? i think i should get back to my signature ".." and ";-)" because it's been that way ever since... well, ok.. ;-)

enough of this comeback sensation.. now i'm going back to business.. ;-)

for the past few days i have learned tons of things that i never thought i would learn at this youthful age.. things about myself and the people around me.. and i appreciate all of them, whether they stink or they sparkle, because all of those lessons gave my soul a little push forward into reality.. they made me open my eyes to things that i never thought i would encounter.. and, i must admit, i grew..

i have discovered that i am very much open-minded to a lot of things, both superficial and unimaginable.. and whenever situation calls it, i just open my mind, consider, and accept the things that are fed to my stream of consciousness (i miss using that term!).. i do not reject opinions.. i absorb them and learn from them.. but i am so open-minded that i sometimes tend to be close-minded too.. my mind is so open to my "variation theory" (mich, add that to our list.. miss ya! ;-) that it tends to focus only to the fact that "all things are always varied and never one-sided" and nothing else.. i am like addicted to looking at all sides equally.. (i just could not elaborate much what i want to say here about my open-mindedness because it's just too amazingly complicated to write.. i just feel and do it.. how i wish i could tell my readers all about this.. tsk tsk tsk.. there are really some things that just can't be written..)

i also discovered a lot about the sad episodes and sick deeds of my loved ones and how they hide their black blood behind thin velvet sheets.. and because of those, i learned how to handle the everyday slaps of reality in my face.. now i know how to take these situations everyday in my head without breaking down in the middle of the road.. and now i can say that i am prepared for the things that i am most afraid of to happen in my life..

i learned how to respect people for what they are.. now i have lessened my prejudice and discrimination.. like what i have typed above, my mind opened a little bit more than the usual.. i like the way i look at things.. i think its very unique.. even i could not type to explain it clearly.. i am so vague.. i am so complex that i could not decipher my own complexities easily.. i myself am shocked at the truths about my life.. i do not know why i am like an unmanageable puzzle.. all i know is i love it and i thank God for making me like this..

only a few people, like my friends, especially Jichael, Pardz, Mich, Raica, and my besh Colleen, had a glimpse of this complexity of mine.. and thankfully, they understand me and accept me for who i am.. they are part of my inspiration to be open-minded and true to myself.. thanks guys.. luv ya! ;-)

i am pretty much drained now from that disclosure.. i hope that i have a next time for this.. God knows i love blogging.. its my connection to my realm and to others' worlds! my eyes are so popping out right now because of the poor lighting (the bulb is red.. imagine! it's night already and the bulb is red! arrgh.. gotta get out of this hell a.s.a.p.) here in the cafe.. my little limbs here that i personally call "fingers" are so tired now because of the rock-hard keyboard.. good thing i like what i am doing.. if not, this black keyboard must have been white by now.. gosh, i miss blogging so much, but my eyes and fingers are in such pain that only people who survived getting bit sharks could explain how much they hurt right now.. i have to go now.. awww! i hope it won't take long 'til my next blog entry..

*sigh* as i bid farewell to the monitor and the internet, let me take this opportunity to thank all my readers and all my supporters.. to my barkada who relentlessly waited for another entry of mine (i miss ya'll! shabu!) and to my other friends who eagerly stared at the edge of their screens and waited for a "karlo is now online" message to pop-up.. thanks for Yahoo!, Blogger, and Friendster for their patience.. thanks to my parents who made this thawing process possible thru their financial support.. thanks to God.. trust me, he already knows who, what, when, where, how, and why.. ;-)

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