Gazeebo De Lala: May 2006

Kuya Pardz / Kaloy / Mama Mich / Chai / Jichael / Aleli / Cass / Colleen / Jane / Mark / Keisha / Kim / Kris / Anakat / Maryel

Lalans by heart, Bedans by blood

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Faith is enough proof!

i am deeply disappointed at people who call themselves "faithful" to God and yet send tons of e-mails and text messages that "test" your belief and faith in God, saying that if you send the message to N people to the Nth power it will mean that you truly love God and that you are faithful in Him, and if you do not bad luck will devour your soul for the next few days..

bull.. all i can say is bull..

don't they know that their own faith, which they keep and nurture deep within their hearts, is enough proof? believe me, i have never sent any message of any kind to anyone regarding that kind of bullsh*t.. why? because i know that deep within me i have faith in Him, enough faith that could surpass all fears, anxieties, troubles, and hardships.. and i do not need to prove to anyone that this faith is genuine.. i do not need to prove anything to anybody.. only to God.. and i know i have proven my faith in Him ever since i knew Him.. that's why i do not waste my time, money, efforts, and my faith just to send those sh*t to people.. and that's why i remain faithful..

forgive me for the language.. i am just so infuriated.. i hate those people who make those kind of messages.. and i am very disappointed at people who send and disperse those messages to other people..

and now, as i close this another entry of mine (yahoo! it did not take long for me to create another entry! ;-), i would like to warn the people who will read this.. do not send me those kind of messages ever.. don't waste your time in rubbish things.. be productive.. or better yet, send me quotes of love and sorrow.. i will appreciate it more.. ;-)

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

have ya?

Have you ever noticed... that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you can never have them?

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most; saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest to say.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Have you ever loved someone and they had absolutely no idea whatsoever?

Or fell for your best friend in the entire world, and then sat around and watched him/her fall for someone else?

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had.

No one waits forever.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

netopia and floorwax, anyone?

i just simply hate the smell of floorwax especially in the morning.

so im here in this amazing place where i have the chance to kill time while my relatives are watching some child-fantasy-trying-to-outnumber-madagascar-in-ticket-sales flick.

im lovin netopia.
since the people around banned me and the others from using friendster for it might cause another virus/crash by yours truly, i have all the time in the world to check out my friendster.

59 minutes remaining.

so lately, lots of things just happend.

jay won project runway [ha! in your face wendy pepper!]
naima won america's next top model cycle 4
chuck and i-forgot-her-name won beauty and the geek
that geek that looks like tom cruise
is still h.o.t
da vinci code is now showing

--apparently none much has happend to the one who is writing this blog.
i am in love.
he sure knows how to swoon me with is voice. and i mean it when i say that no one would ever replace him. this is not a kind of fling that would last in a month..or a year...or even decades.

cheezy enough to say this but: i love him.till the end of time.
now if you'll excuse me, i have to go to the nearest cr and barf.
wanna know who he is?1

setting aside the floppy words that i just gave, i have news.
[stares at the computer screen]

nah, ive got nothing.
it's been a long time since ive updated my blog [because of another law that states that thou shall not use blog sites and friendster. something like that. i just seriously made that up.]

50 minutes remaining
[and just wasted 2 mins of my time to figure out how many minutes are left for me]

recently, i had these feelings that i cant make it through my course in college. maybe it's because of fear, maybe it's because i just dont feel like it. but there's this part of me that says that i could be the best of what i am doing. i just dont have the confidence.

and part of me says to shut my future tunnel for a while and enjoy the rest of the summer. for the meanwhile, i will sing to you my theme song for the summer.

my hallux
my patellar
my acromion
my cranium [repeat 2x]

im starting to like anatomy. no wait, i take that back. i just noticed that since ive started studying anatomy, my grammar and spelling went down the drain. is this the effect of becoming a licenced nurse in the future??? next topic,pleace
.[and yes, i intended to type that for comedic effect. crap my grammar is flunking.]

since i have tried so hard to change my life since some people would just happily ditch a lil ol me, let's take this blog entries a little more serious.

i just simply hate the smell of floorwax especially in the morning.

*putting up this footnote is quite useless though you might know the likes of him.i would still not mention his beloved name just for a fact that i love to torture my readers. pax.

Friday, May 19, 2006

I'm back! ;-)

hey bloggers! i'm back! with a vengeance...

wow, it's so good to be online again! hurrah! i'm in the 21st century again! for two months i was a block of ice in my igloo... a big, fat (in terms of cholesterol, lipids, adipose tissues, and the like) block of ice that did nothing but eat, play, and sleep 24/7... but of course, i also cleansed myself with twigs, leaves, and water from a stream nearby my place... whew! talking about my own ice age for the past two months...

but now i am gradually thawing to the modern times... i'm feeling again the grandeur that is the internet! good thing Yahoo! Mail, Blogger, and Friendster did not ban me from using their services...

yehey! my writing ability is online again! it's been a lifetime since i wrote something with my carpals... hey, that's a scientific term! my course-mates would be so proud of me... hehehe... hey, am i using "..."? and where is my ";-)"? i think i should get back to my signature ".." and ";-)" because it's been that way ever since... well, ok.. ;-)

enough of this comeback sensation.. now i'm going back to business.. ;-)

for the past few days i have learned tons of things that i never thought i would learn at this youthful age.. things about myself and the people around me.. and i appreciate all of them, whether they stink or they sparkle, because all of those lessons gave my soul a little push forward into reality.. they made me open my eyes to things that i never thought i would encounter.. and, i must admit, i grew..

i have discovered that i am very much open-minded to a lot of things, both superficial and unimaginable.. and whenever situation calls it, i just open my mind, consider, and accept the things that are fed to my stream of consciousness (i miss using that term!).. i do not reject opinions.. i absorb them and learn from them.. but i am so open-minded that i sometimes tend to be close-minded too.. my mind is so open to my "variation theory" (mich, add that to our list.. miss ya! ;-) that it tends to focus only to the fact that "all things are always varied and never one-sided" and nothing else.. i am like addicted to looking at all sides equally.. (
i just could not elaborate much what i want to say here about my open-mindedness because it's just too amazingly complicated to write.. i just feel and do it.. how i wish i could tell my readers all about this.. tsk tsk tsk.. there are really some things that just can't be written..)

i also discovered a lot about the sad episodes and sick deeds of my loved ones and how they hide their black blood behind thin velvet sheets.. and because of those, i learned how to handle the everyday slaps of reality in my face.. now i know how to take these situations everyday in my head without breaking down in the middle of the road.. and now i can say that i am prepared for the things that i am most afraid of to happen in my life..

i learned how to respect people for what they are.. now i have lessened my prejudice and discrimination.. like what i have typed above, my mind opened a little bit more than the usual.. i like the way i look at things.. i think its very unique.. even i could not type to explain it clearly.. i am so vague.. i am so complex that i could not decipher my own complexities easily.. i myself am shocked at the truths about my life.. i do not know why i am like an unmanageable puzzle.. all i know is i love it and i thank God for making me like this..

only a few people, like my friends, especially Jichael, Pardz, Mich, Raica, and my besh Colleen, had a glimpse of this complexity of mine.. and thankfully, they understand me and accept me for who i am.. they are part of my inspiration to be open-minded and true to myself.. thanks guys.. luv ya! ;-)

i am pretty much drained now from that disclosure.. i hope that i have a next time for this.. God knows i love blogging.. its my connection to my realm and to others' worlds! my eyes are so popping out right now because of the poor lighting (the bulb is red.. imagine! it's night already and the bulb is red! arrgh.. gotta get out of this hell a.s.a.p.) here in the cafe.. my little limbs here that i personally call "fingers" are so tired now because of the rock-hard keyboard.. good thing i like what i am doing.. if not, this black keyboard must have been white by now.. gosh, i miss blogging so much, but my eyes and fingers are in such pain that only people who survived getting bit sharks could explain how much they hurt right now.. i have to go now.. awww! i hope it won't take long 'til my next blog entry..

*sigh* as i bid farewell to the monitor and the internet, let me take this opportunity to thank all my readers and all my supporters.. to my barkada who relentlessly waited for another entry of mine (i miss ya'll! shabu!) and to my other friends who eagerly stared at the edge of their screens and waited for a "karlo is now online" message to pop-up.. thanks for Yahoo!, Blogger, and Friendster for their patience.. thanks to my parents who made this thawing process possible thru their financial support.. thanks to God.. trust me, he already knows who, what, when, where, how, and why.. ;-)


Thursday, May 11, 2006

to my best friend...proud2bmorena

Time and time again I've been reminded of how love can be both beautiful and painful...well that's a fact of life. When we love someone we must be ready to accept both the good and bad; happy or sad...this is the simple fact that my best friend embodies time after time. I am happy for her and her special someone who have gone through the trials of having a relationship. They keep showing me that it is never easy like life we have to stick it through everything and when we get through it we get more than what we ask for. I praise the both of them for sticking together through everything. It just proves to me that when you find the right person you wouldn't let go without a fight. They're relationship is what other people aspire to have but fail to reach. So, to the both of you I wish you nothing but the best and I know that the two of you were made for each other.

To end this entry...I would like to quote a very popular t.v. series "One Tree Hill"

"At this moment, there are six billion, four hundred seventy million, eight hundred eighteen thousand, six hundred seventy one people in the world.

Some… are running scared.

Some… are coming home.

Some tell lies to make it through the day.

Others are just not facing the truth.

Some are evil men, at war with good.

And some are good, struggling with evil.

Six billion people in the world...

... Six billion souls.

And sometimes…

… All you need is one."

-Peyton (episode 1 season 3)